Friday, January 20, 2006

Joy and Pain

It's been a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions this week.

I would think that if you are accused of something, the accuser would at least check their facts before assuming that you are guilty. As things stand, I have already been found guilty with no evidence. I'm trying hard to keep my sister out of this because I know what would happen and it wouldn't be nice!

If I were going to call someone I didn't know, I would firstly not use my phone. Second, I would change my voice. Third, I would not ask for the person (i.e. the accuser), especially when I know that they aren't there, I'd ask for some random person. In this case, all of these things have been done, and I can only assume the person who supposedly received this call is blatantly lying. It had occurred to me that the person who claims to have received this call is out to make trouble. Problem is, the accuser is incapable of seeing or understanding that. In my thirty-something years, I have never done anything like that, and neither has any of my family.

So it's been a week of silence. Well, not exactly, it's a week of my calling and long gaps of silence. Today was the first time I was able to put my side of the story - yes, it's that bad. It seems that I'm paying for something I did not do, based on one person's word, even though I say I have copies of all of my calls made on the day and time in question. Not only that, but it seems that the timing of the person is off, but Accuser can't quite see that.

I'm expected to apologise for something I did not do, and I will not do that. To apologise for something you didn't do is lying in itself, because it means that somewhere down the line, should another incident occur again, you will automatically be found guilty. If you make a phone call on my line, as long as it's not a direct overseas call, I don't have a problem with it. Would I be so emphatic about my innocence if I was lying?

There's nothing worse than being accused of something you did not do based on hearsay. Worse still is when the claimant has an agenda of which you know nothing. Who is she and what is she to you?

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Try a little tenderness

It's a new year, a new day, a new start.

Last night I opted to stay home rather than go to church, having good intentions of doing my mountainous ironing. Well, my plans kinda got scuppered because I got waylaid making fishcakes. I put an entire Scotch Bonnet pepper in it and it STILL wasn't hot enough! During that time I was listening to music, and then was finished around 11:30pm. Midnight saw me talking to val on the phone, I can't quite remember what about. She tried to keep the children up, but eventually was forced to send them to bed.

Today I went to church, and afterwards made my way to to see the Smith family. Whilst on my way to London Bridge, switched my phone on and saw new text messages, one of them being from Zac. His text wished me a happy new year and went on to say:
"On vis new year's day I thought it appropriate 2 let you know that I do have feelings 4 you.I hope it doesn't sound silly to say that I love you ;)"

That took me by surprise, sort of. I thought things went well last week, I hoped maybe I might hear from him and he'd keep in touch, but I didn't expect a response like this. My reply was non-committal, I have no idea whether he's serious or not and I prefer to play it safe until I know the real score. So that was food for thought, as I went to see Sandi and Den and the children. Had a good time and came home more thoughtful than when I left.